Wandering with the Wind...

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Today was...stupid. Boring. What else can I say. -.- Mom wasn't at home for a saturday cuz she had to attend this...er...English lesson or something, organized by her school. Yeah so...I had to touch up on all my hols homework, Jap compo and some other crap, like...rushing through Math Tuition homework and 15 minutes later I've gotta start up my History PT.

Okay, firstly, I did this painting out of boredom. It was originally supposed to be about "imagination" but in the end it turned out to be "Death". Yeah well...looks like some weird dream. So I titled it "Death in a Dream". Woophs lol.

Here goes.

Stumbled into this site called Art Akiane, WONDERFUL ARTWORKS. Omg she's only 12!!! And she'd started painting like a damn experienced artist. Her artworks like Quantum World, Creation, Dreams, The Pyramids, Inspiration, Dance of the Mind, Endurance...I feel so belittled. Feels as though I'm standing in-front of Van Gogh or somebody. -.-

Haiz...she's an Indigo. A really talented type too.

Okay let's stop feeling pathetic. There's somebody more pathetic than us yesterday.

Okay not pathetic, more of...sad life. Yesterday when I was writing Jap compo in my room at night, some guy from the opposite block was yelling DAMN LOUDLY. I dunno...apparently he was arguing wish his parents.

Son: TELL U??? TELL U WHAT? TELL U PROBLEM U OSO DUN CARE. EVERYTHING U DUN CARE. TELL U FOR WHAT???

Son: YOU EVERYTIME WHACK ME. U KNOW MY INSIDE HERE VERY SCARED OF U LEH. I DUN WANNA SEE YOU. EVERYTIME I SEE U U WHACK ME. IM SCARED OF SEEING U.

Mom: Mommy just wanted u to change.

Son: I TRIED TO CHANGE.

This is just an excerpt...too lazy to type everything out. I don't want a furious rampant on my blog anyway...too many caps make me go dizzy. 0.o

So apparently he said something about him hating this world, that he didn't want to live, that he wanted to crash he car, he wish his parents would whack him to death also can. Haiz...at that point of time I just nuzzled my forehead and bit back that feeling of crying. I DUNNO WHY. Omg...I just started feeling so anxious.

And scenes of CLE lessons played back in my mind. You know...when Mrs Jay said "there was nobody to guide them" about that guy who stole a rifle from NS to kill his ex-girlfriend. So when he said he didn't want to live, I felt as though the same thing is gonna happen if nothing is done. It gave me a terrible hopeless feeling, and I just felt frustrated at how dark reality is and how haywire normal families have gone.

There wasn't that unconditional love in this world anymore. None. It's all darkness,

people suffering in silence; apparently this guy bottled up all his feelings for 14 years as he said. It's a sad truth you know, reality, I wonder if it would really be so much different if we lived in the 5th dimension of light. The current society lacks light.

I'm not trying to act empathic or sympathetic. It's true...though I may sound like some kid moping over a cup of spilt milk. Well, it's kinda right anyway. Honestly, this society right now is a cup of spilt milk. And I dunno what to do besides mope and try things over with visualization. I dunno how to help. I dunno the exact method.

So I tried out this Universal Light-Waterfall visualization technique which I found from an Indigo website, you can only do it well if you have tele-visualization skills (holographic thinking).

Yeah...so I visualized that I'm standing within this light waterfall, filled with love, and it was flowing into me from the top of my head / crown chakra. It replenished my energies and flowed down through me to the bottom of Earth. They call this grounding. Yeah...I could really feel that liquid light, it felt so soothing and gentle and warm...closer to me than anything, closer than any other dimension or reality or any soul. It felt as though it was part of me.

So I grabbed hold of this timing and did as they said, transferring the stream of light to the heart chakra guy in that block to heal his energies. Lol I exerted a lot of force in passing that beam of energy over, because even though I'm not sure if this technique really works, I was pretty desperate to help him calm down. I'm sure that if my willpower gets strong enough, it may have some effect on his spiritual plains.

And the weird thing is...they stopped arguing immediately after I finished the visualization. REALLY IMMEDIATELY. Before that they were screaming and shouting and fighting and after I finished visualizing, they stopped. Abruptly. All of a sudden as though everybody fainted. I got damn shocked lol.

So in bed I was still very desperate about helping him recover from his depression, so even though I didn't know his face, I made up one to represent him so as to aid my visualization. And I entered my world to meet my "higher being" so we merged energies to create a stronger beam of light, and yeah...same thing happens...it's basically just repeating the technique with my higher being. That's all.

Dad's coming home from Hawaii today!!! He's reaching Singapore at 12 midnight and I'll be able to see him at 1 am. That's why mom told me to sleep first, and she'd call me later when he's back. XD He's gonna be back. YAY and the guitar too. XP

Yesterday I did Taiko drum over at moelc, from 3 pm to 5pm. IT WAS MIRACULOUS. I love the drums!!!!!!! The rhythm is cooooool. Don Don Don sore Doko n ko don sore!!! Don "ni san hai" Don "ni san hai" Don "hai" Don "hai" Don "Hai" Don "Hai" Don Don Don Don Don Don Don Don Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon Dondon.

And goes back to the start. XD

I LOVE IT.

Okay, I should do something about my History PT, gotta go now. Cya guys, nightie and sweet dreams~

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