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Thursday, September 10, 2009
Whew, it's the hols. Actually it's already the fourth day of the hols and nearing the end, but, well, beautiful day I had today. Had a really great time with Az and Ming Wei at the Jurong library and then at Az's house - managed to buy Naruto volume 47 after hunting at IMM, the school bookshop never seems to restock their mangas.
Yup, as expected, three art nerds having an awesome day together. ^^"
Oh but we finished the chibis! Took us quite some time to get all the requests, and in the end Az just drew a couple her way since the people concerned didn't seem to give a damn. Ah well, now that it's over, I have to say I kinda liked my chibi. *Woots* Thanks Az!
Bleh I'm kinda tired today. Getting really really emo now from the song I'm listening to, and yea it's T.A.T.U again, All My Love to be exact. I was hunting for the instrumental version of that song for soooo long, but till now I could only find the Russian / English version; already an achievement, but somehow having lyrics kinda spoils the entire ambience. All My Love is better off being instrumental honestly. The original lyric-less version is played with acoustic guitar and piano, and some other things. Sounded beautifully melancholic.
Now if only I could get the instrumental version...there isn't really a way for me to get rid of the voice since it's part of the audio, but then...
Haiz.
Ah well, forget it. I'll find it someday.
Just read the volume 3 of Residence of the Sun, the plot ended there, very nicely. I'm still way too mad over Residence of the Sun - it's the awesomest narusasu doujinshi ever and I haven't gotten over it yet!! Argh! I think the coverpage had a spell or something. The way they coloured the sunset was so...TwT soothingly lonely. And that's one of the reasons why I'm now mad over All My Love too; background music for my fav doujinshi, what else can you expect? Both of them fit perfectly.
And then there's the entire sad ambience for the plot that draws me in so much. I love bittersweet endings, and volume 3 ended the plot wayyy toooo well. There was a cycle sort of effect; when they last went to view the sunrise at the mountain it was on Sas' birthday 4 years ago, and in the ending it's Naru's. And the way humour and life was weaved in with melancholy...small, obscure things like looking after a tomato garden, and Naruto's reaction when he found out the utterly ridiculous fact that Sas loved comedy, well, they explain a lot on their own. I bet this artist could've been on par with Kishimoto well enough.
Alright, this is definitely my ultimate pal for emoing. I can read it over and over and not get bored, cuz the plot is just so sad. I'm never sick of sad stuff.
Kay I better get going, had a long day and I'd love some rest. Cya!***~~~Played with the winds at 10.50pm*~~~
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Okay for some reason I'm feeling very emo now so I'm gonna blog again. I think it's because of Ming Wei's sms spree; he was in the botanic garden and apparently he smsed me about how, um, wonderful he felt lying on the grass staring at the night sky so...yea. Then we talked about various manga plotlines, Japanese films and our fav times of the day etc etc. Wow, simple things sure spiral into bigger stuff sooner or later.
Well he said he liked evening and night, something like my favourites, I liked sunsets, evenings and nights. Actually my utmost favourite is still a time in my world for which I have yet to find the right adjective; it's something like a combination of everything, there's no distinct watershed. Maybe not so much of night, but it's definitely got evening and afternoon, and a bit of morning. It's the time at that place with the whole field of waist-length yellow, mountains, lots of wind, and a clear pale blue sky. Or another one when I'm up on the mountains looking down at this calm sapphireblue lake below, and really a lot of wind. Yup. I loved that kind of time.
And then I have other times with sunsets - one of them is down this mountainside village, I'd be walking through the streets and there're lots of people, stores, and houses, food stalls and smoke (those from cooking) on both sides, a little bit of festive ambience but definitely not so in truth. It's more of a daily life sort of thing. I dislike crowds, but for some reason the village was really nice; it felt so isolated, like watching life going on but they don't give you extra attention. And the best thing is still the beautiful sunset that fills the entire place - red, warm, and forgotten.
The second sunset is a colder one, it's the one in "Looking Back" which I posted in the previous entry. Mountains, a pale sun, yellow fading to pink skies, and a fence on this side of the hill. The time is still for this one, it's like, as one of my deviant buds said, as though the sun stays there and never moves and thus time never goes on. Really fitting description :D This sunset is one of my favourites. The pic I photoshopped, though, was inspired by this Naruto doujinshi titled Taiyou No Sumika; really awesome plotline and cover page painting, bittersweet ending, and it's in my absolute favs.
The last sunset is also on a mountain, cliff to be exact, but this one's golden and warm, and it's got a field. The field's mostly green, but has occasional streaks of brown and yellow. Lots of wind again, and the sun's big and golden, those you get in early sunsets. This kind of sunset makes me wanna spring off the cliff, in my world of course. Oh yea and another one is by the ocean when the golden setting sun glistens off the water surface. Huge rock walls behind me, so sometimes I'd just sit on the rocks looking out at the sea.
As for night I have two, one on the green misty fields with alpine mountains around, and another by the sea with a lot of stars. The seaside scene is usually the one whereby I'd have picnics with my dream companions. :)
Actually my world is a whole lot more dynamic than these few, I was just listing out my fav times. Hmm but these visualizations sure set me off thinking...when I'm meddling around with my idealisms, what are other people's utopia?
Well it could be just about anyone. Az, Cher, Ms Lim, Ming Wei, Mrs Tan, Mrs Chia, Brendan, etc etc. Everyone has their own world, and I definitely know them all too little to imagine.
It's so easy to start thinking about what's after death. We do that all the time - it's in our instincts to fear death, but why? Well if everything in life has got a deadline, and death is the deadline of life, then do we have to submit something by death? What is that something? Do we fear the ultimate deadline that's ingrained in our subconsciousness since birth?
It's all such a jumbled mess. I've seen some interesting theories; one was the Time Split Theory, whereby everyone enters their own realities after death (I've forgotten the spiritual / scientic - if there was - implications stated), sounds quite possible. Because if our own realities are what we spend our entire life building, then we could possibly redeem our works after death. Could, not "would", and don't forget "possibly", cuz it sounds so out-of-realism and too utopian.
You know, actually to me, it's good to be a pessimist when appropriate. Like, thinking you flunked your exam, but when the actual marks come down they're better than expected, and it comes as a pleasant surprise. And if it isn't so, then we can try getting optimistic and start planning for what's coming next. It's harder to disappoint yourself this way as compared to a full-time optimist.
In a way, pessimism is beautiful. It makes you view beauty, when it appears, umpteen folds better than what they originally are. Optimism is an all-time brightness, but after a while, you get darkness if you don't alternate between these two regularly. This society is like that. It's just a bit of a warped version of the original implication of adaptation; when some can take this as a pathetic way to make yourself happy, others can take it as an effective method to mitigating misery.
Well, ts all a matter of choice. We just have to keep choosing don't we?
Life is such a millipede.
Okay I'm tired. Yay. Now I can go to sleep - next time if I'm emo but awake and want to sleep, I should blog.
Alright good night and take care people! Horrible days ahead and hols ending in, uh, about 7 days, and then another 3 months and we'll be sec three, and another year and we'll face the horrors of unresponsive sec four, then jc, then uni, then working like a dog...and if a person's max life span is 100 years, in about 86 more years we'd be dead.
Not to mention if global warming keeps escalating that span will be halved if not quartered.
*Pessimism*...***~~~*Played with the winds at 11.13pm*~~~
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