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Thursday, January 29, 2009
Toss a thousand questions to the wind,
They’ll come back unanswered.
Bleed a thousand depths of love,
They’ll come back unrequited.
Live a thousand empty lives,
They’ll come back unfulfilled.
So give not, start saving,
And one day when the earths shrivel,
The walls crumble,
The brambles wither,
The rivers convulse underfoot,
Stop upon your lonely path and toss them all
To your own famished soul.
For how else will you survive?
Here, alone, in this cold, empty world?
There is no other way. ***~~~*Played with the winds at 10.18pm*~~~ PS: Too tired to blog...
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Aw man...tired tired tired...................................
Ok well today was...relatively okay, but VERY VERY BUSTLING. Cuz I had to settle CAP crap and things just get tangled up so easily. Slept at 1.30 am yesterday - printing 4 CAP portfolios and 3 application forms, two of which went haywire cuz the photocopier ran out of cyan ink. Damn it, treacherous cartridges! In the end my photo had its face red cuz no cyan blend.
And I went to school and tried photocopying it after I bought the 4 sliding files, but it came out that the face was totally BLACK! Darn it! I was so pissed. So after math lesson Denise wanted me to ask Mrs Chia if she could help me photocopy a coloured version but she said she was very sorry she couldn't - well, no colour photocopiers in school. I was so freaked out. But guess what, Germaine (and Denise, for remembering it) saved my life! She had 2 pages of the class photographs and I cut my face out from the paper (1 coloured 1 black and white) and pasted them on the app forms! Yay!
Got Mr Chia's signature today, and skipped NCC training. He was very scary when he came out to sign my form - like he was angry or something. Oh but who cares...it's my right to quit that CCA if I didn't like it and have been selected into something else I love. Yup so please, don't blame me.
Hmm OH and Math was terrible. I think my confidence is tumbling down the hill again...I couldn't do the whole of the last page of Algebraic fractions. Gotta ask my dad to help me a little, or book a CES session on Fri with Mrs Chia bfore 3rd lang.
Anyway, I'll keep this short, I need to go now. Sorry. There's a hell load of things that happened over the last 4 days but I'll update you guys when I have time. Cya for now! Homework...homework....................***~~~*Played with the winds at 7.08pm*~~~
Sunday, January 25, 2009
I suppose I won't be able to blog tomorrow since I'll be out from day to night, so uh...I guess I'll wish you guys Happy Chinese New Year today - tho I'm pretty much having a bad headache from all the school administrative stuff I have to settle, and the dong-dong-chiang Chinese New Year songs sure make it worse. Hmm so yup, enjoy yourselves, stick to the clock till it's 12 and go to sleep, and yea. O.O I'm at a loss for words.
Hah on Wednesday there's NCC training, drills and AAR (dunno what the heck that is, tho I reckon it's a company thing cuz part Cs and Ds are also joining in). No 4 uniform. I wonder if I shud go.
Cheese said they learnt a lot of new drills over the past 2 trainings that I missed, so they'd have to teach me fast if I'm going for wed's training - so I think I shouldn't go, right? I'm changing CCA anyway.
Got Ms Seah to sign my form already, need Mr Chia's acknowledgements. I think I'll let him sign it sometime bfore morning assembly or during recess / lunch then run away that afternoon. XD Won't take the risk to walk up to him during training and get him sign the form and try to leave - not unless step 7 is completed. Current CCA teacher has to write confirmation letter...haiz.
And then there's CAP portfolio submission on wed and a hell lot of other application forms. I haven't even bought the folders AND A4 file OR binders. Gawd. I'm so damn dead. ><>
Somebody help me argh.
Or rather just give me the ability to help myself.
Oh well...oh yea on Friday we had no half-day but there was a 1h celebration (considering they were sensible enough), and there was a brief crosstalk conducted by 2 male teachers. Lol it was damn funny, some parts I mean. Basically this guy was supposed to translate what the other guy said, and of course it's like...^^" Hmm yup. So for example...
Microsoft (微软) became "有一点点软". Youtube became "你管". And some other things.
The funniest part was when this guy sang a CNY song, and then the other guy has to state the meaning of that song (still in chinese). One song is like damn hilarious...
Original version: 幸福来呀，幸福来呀，...... (Can't remember)
The guy's: 醒不来呀，醒不来呀，大厅放棺材。
Which practically means, from some "Prosperity" crap to "Can't wake up, can't wake up, coffin in the living room". Bleh it doesn't sound so funny in Eng cuz it's supposed to be Chinese-ish. So yup.
Ehz and we had home econs bfore assembly. I baked a quiche and Az did the choc! XD I brought the quiche home to share with my parents. They said it was great - yay! Tho I think it wasn't as good as I'd wanted it to be; but at least it exceeded my parents' expectations - very obvious. Hmm yup, I wanted to bake a bigger quiche for CNY for my family, but then my mom wanted me to study and so I couldn't buy the ingredients and I couldn't do anything cooking-related. So sad. *Sob* Instead I had to go to lot 1 to buy mathematics assessment books - 3 OF THEM!! Argh! To finish it this year...omg............................
And there were some Japanese stupidity in our Jap class. XD They were pretty cute. I guess I'll just list some here.
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（「で」を勉強するの時）
私：「何で寿司を食べますか。」
チフィーちゃん：「手を食べます。」
私：「手を食べますじゃないよ！手で食べます！」O＿O
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（「思う」を勉強するの時）
私：「学校の食べ物をどう思いますか。」
チフィーちゃん：「美味しいと思います。」
私：「どうして美味しいと思いますか。」
チフィーちゃん：O_O
私：O_O
先生：「ああら、それはノンセンスだよ。美味しいと思うは理由がない。」
私：O_O「あ、そうですか。ごめんね！」
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Okay I really need to go. Dinner now. ><>
Okie enjoy yourselves, cya back in school on Wed!
Happy CNY~!***
~~~*Played with the winds at 7.42pm*~~~
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Argh tomorrow need to hand up CAP portfolio (final submission). Dang, I didn't get any As for the draft, everything B. Dam's one has ticks everywhere, A B C. =.= Aw man...I really feel a lil sick now. Uh right, I guess I'll skim through some events today.
Well for one thing we had an experiment in the chem lab, something about mixing sulphur and iron filings and then sticking them into test-tubes or letting them boil in a crucible over a bunsen burner (fancy what weird things those people can think of-!). We burned it. Smells horrible. Makes your nose dry and it stinks and it irritates you and gives you a headache and leaves you with a desperate craving for water.
Haiz. Chem. Periodic tables. Darn them.
Oh and MY burnt her finger after she touched the crucible. Seems like that white little innocent-looking thing has its own episode to show how EVIL it is. =.=
Hmm let's see...for S&D I improvised my self-intro speech and I think it was quite okay, tho I ended up saying less than there really are to say about myself. Apparently my mind goes blank at times.
Um...nid print 3 copies of CAP portfolio (MY PAPER!!!), prepare the app forms, then get the teacher's rec letter, then get 3 copies of CCA transfer form and fill them up and get siggies...argh!
Wish me good luck ba. I don't even seem to have time to write to my mortal.
Uhm...er...oh and yesterday I spent about 2h doing ws 4 (I feel so stupid) and still had 4 questions not sure how to do, so I skipped lunch today and completed the questions (2 of them with CQ's help), and managed to do the rest for dunno what reason. Mrs Chia didn't call me again to answer question. YAY!!! ^^" I hate it when I have to stand in-front of the class explaining math - now not hating the subject, more of...hating the explanation that's all. I taught Louisa 2 questions tho, she was happy about it. XD
Okay and during Chinese lesson we didn't do much work. We listen to JJ's song (chinese teacher's choice) and ate cookies etc. Lol. Well yup, I guess it was a (relatively) good time.
And I saw Mr Chua (Guitar instructor) on the way home!!! Lols! On the road outside RG. So crazy eh? He was staring at me - gawd does he even recognize me???!!!
Oh well.
Aha and detective conan ep 521 rocked! Waiting for 522! And movie 13 trailer 2's coming out after 522!!! Woohoo!!!
Hehe.
Okay mom coming home gtg!!!!!!!!!!! BYE~!***~~~*Played with the winds at 6.09pm*~~~
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
OMG OMG GUESS WHAT???
I GOT IN FOR GUITAR ENSEMBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow I'm so dang happy! The happiest I've ever felt since sec 1. XD I'll get to learn guitar! And leave NCC Air (sorry for my platoonmates I really love them tho)! And do something I'd LOVE to do for 3 years!!!!!!
Yay!
And maybe I can take the guitar to China and play some songs for my grandparents. That'll make them happy~
Yippeee!!!
*cough* Sugar high.
So I guess I should update you guys on what happened DURING the trial and how I suspected the teacher wanted me in the first place.
Okay so...
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[Start]
Me: Good afternoon.
Teacher: Good afternoon, please take a seat. Can you give me your details please?
Me: (my personal details...blahblah)
Teacher: Xu Xinchao...you're from China right? Which part of China?
Me: Um...Jiang Su.
Teacher: Oh Jiang Su - a pretty place I remember!
Me: O_O
Teacher: Okay so do you have any stage experience?
Me: Uh yea. Crosstalk in P5, then another crosstalk in P6, P6 graduation skit, P5 representative speech, P5 Nan Hua school concert, P6 Mooncake Festival skit, P6 Nan Hua 90th Aniversary concert at Victoria theatre.
Teacher: O.O (can't remember what he said) Hmm then what's your CCA in P6?
Me: Choir and Chinese Society - but I quit choir midyear.
Teacher: Hmm okay. What about sec 1?
Me: Um NCC Air.
Teacher: NCC Air? Hmm okay... (writes something down)
[ Another chunk of interview questions, forgot them alr ]
[ Then the rhythm test, clapping, singing, pitching... ]
Me: Actually I tried for Guitar in sec 1, I really wanted to get in, but I didn't manage to.
Teacher: Oh you tried for Guitar in sec 1?
Me: *Nods*
Teacher: And you didn't get in. Why?
Me: Uh because the teacher asked me that...to play Guitar we need to have long fingernails, but we can't leave long fingernails for piano, so she asked me if that would affect my piano. At that time I was still considering whether or not to continue piano so I just said...uh...it might. Yea. (Actually I was thinking "How do I know")
Teacher: Actually you don't need to stop piano to learn guitar.
Me: Yea, but the....(Can't remember what I said)
Teacher: Ok show me your hand? Put your hand on the table.
Me: *Puts hand on the table*
Teacher: *Points with pen at my finger and fingertips) You know your fingers are very good for guitar-playing? (He said something about tone etc but I dunno)
Me: *Smiles*
Teacher: *Smiles back* Okay, we shall let you know the results later. Thank you!
Student Helper: Thank you! *Smiles*
Me: Thank you, bye!
[End]
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Well that's basically it. I was just giving you a gist about the trial.
Okie watching geog vid tomorrow bfore AngKlung trial...should I even go for Ang Klung trial? I dont feel like eh....=.= Since I'm in Guitar alr...I think I'll trial for CO too, just in case Guitar too many ppl?
And honestly, my dream WORKED!!!
Well yea. Basically a few weeks ago I had a dream whereby I was looking at this bunch of Guitar ppl in a room holding guitars and there was white mist all around, and I felt very very very happy and confident. Then I suspected that I was gonna have something good in this Guitar trial.
Turns out I did!!!
Woohoo - Sweet!!!
Aw I cant go back to NHPS on Fri. School full day, and third lang after that. Sad...
Kay gtg!!! Cya!!! XD***
~~~*Played with the winds at 7.04pm*~~~
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Oh god oh god I'm so gonna die...I still have one piece of CHINESE essay to complete...I just finished the letter, though it was crap cuz halfway through it looked more like a compo instead of a personal letter, and it was 5 pages long, and my handwriting was messy, and it's 10.30 now so I can't think of what the hell to write...gawd Tang Lao Shi is so gonna kill me. WHAT SHOULD I WRITE FOR THE OTHER ESSAY???
Argh!!!
I wonder why I'm even blogging now. =.=
Wwwwwoh well it's good to, u know, let out your feelings when u need to. I've been a bit pent-up about some stuff lately. Haven't blogged for another week. Guess I'll update u guys again. o_o
On Fri I missed Jap lesson for CCA Trials, went for Band, but they gave all priority to sec 1s so even though I sang very well (not being ego, the person said so), only one in our group got in and it was a sec 1. Well...=.= Oh well. Then for CO trials my number was 48 and they were very slow so by 6 pm they had only gotten to number 20, and I had to go home and come for the second trial. But just hope I get in, I'd do anything to be accepted into performing arts so I can get out of NCC. (No offence)
Okay. So now I'm getting on my diet again, this time stricter and hopefully I can last through it long enough. Well I do realize this is like a lifetime kind of thing; cuz the calorie maintenence level drops and drops when u eat less and less and you can never expect to come out of the cycle without being adversely affected (so much for geog), unless you find some way to increase your metabolism rate with a pang.
Kay, so now I'm taking note of my daily calorie intake. =.= Damn annoying, but oh well. And I start to exercise 1 hour if I can - at least half, though. And I adopted the NCC Air PT sets into my own set too, just to be more efficient.
Um...now I'm eating with cups. O.O
OKAY (feels stupid) now the only problem is how to get past my parents. They think I'm eating too little now. Damn. Well come on! I'm trying to CHANGE something in me and why do they have to disrupt every single decision I make...I mean, yes I know they care, but they're not the only ones who're right everytime! They're man after all. They can't expect to be all perfect.
So when I say I'm gonna have ONLY fruits for dinner, they chuck me up with rice and vegs and meat and soup etc etc etc. So I shoved my rice to dad until I'm left with one spoonful (approx.), then took as much vegs to fill one cup, one mushie, and some fruits in another cup. I can't afford to continue eating as much as they do. If I am to change myself, then I have to be determined to do so in the first place.
Damn, things are so irritating.
Kay I really got to go. Or I won't be able to finish my homework. CYA!!!!!***~~~*Played with the winds at 10.36pm*~~~
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Okay I'm back - as promised, I'm putting up the photo of my (and my art teacher's) painting together:
OMG I just realized I love it~! Okay I think I'm getting a bit ego. Well...the carrot was mainly my work, especially the shadowed part of the carrot, but the white streaks were by the teacher. Oh man the bottle was mainly his work - mine was black, then he ran over it with colours. O.O They look pretty don't they? And the apple too. He added more life to it.
Well, on to other stuff.
I just finished all my homework save for Commonwealth Essay (in which I have a writer's block), and the Speech & Drama "Introduce yourself in a creative way". I've got ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA what to write for those two. So I think I'll put them back a bit. I finished all others anyway, and more than what was required for math too. I really need to buck up on that subject; to prove to myself and others than I can really be who I am.
Hmm...let's see, I think I should really tell you about my dreams yesterday and today afternoon during nap. For yesterday, I can't really remember most of my dream, but there was an astral travel, and I was semi-conscious while I was coming out.
In the dream, I was staring at this computer (at that point of time it was little into lucid dreaming), and it was something like a wish list; what you want to do, and what you wanna get. So I filled in for the 3 options...one is to improve math, the other to astral travel, the third I could not remember. Then after that somehow I went to a chakra site, and they taught me to work on the 3 chakras for astral travelling, though I could not remember how.
Basically I focused on my Solar Plexus chakra first, and immediately I was like semi-conscious and feeling the damned great vibration WITHIN me, between my chest and my back. It was WITHIN, mainly to the back though, for the first time. Then after that I shifted to something above, I think was the heart chakra. I couldn't remember what I felt for that one, but for the last one I focused on my crown chakra.
I saw violet, luminant violet, and on the com it said "think of the solar system" and I thought of huge planets (I think one of them was jupiter) with no sound - vacuum in outer space, and immediately I felt myself floating outwards on my (right) side. I was really like coming out, could feel it; but I wanted to go back again cuz at that time it was around 6.30 I think and I was very very tired, didn't feel like journeying outside. And there was the feeling of vulnerability again; I didn't like the vibration cuz it felt a little forceful, and it was like there was something powerful outside that I did not like the prospect of meeting it unprotected...like, without my body.
Well, yea.
Then for the nap dream, Endro was in it. My mom and I were walking along the streets at night in a weird place, the floors were rugged and dusty, but kinda wet. Then we met this man who was selling weird UFO-shaped toys, with vibrant luminant colours mainly green, red, and blue, and the toys could fly. There was a strange stick or something which we would have to hold, and wherever we point the stick the UFO toy would fly in that direction. Something like aero-modelling I did in NCC air, just that it wasn't connected with strings or anything.
It was more of...connected by energy, cuz I could feel the weight on the end of the stick as I pointed and the toy moved.
Then my mom bought one, though I said it was too ex. Well I played with it. O.O Then after that I found a weird white recorder (with many many more holes) in my mom's room, it could play a larger range of tunes than my own recorder, though it was very weirdly shaped, and when I tried it the sound was like shrieking. Not very nice, but I was interested in taking it along. Then I don't know where my mom went, instead I found myself with Endro walking in streets in the same town, and we talked (can't remember contents of chat).
We came to this household where an old grumpy woman was living alone, and the stone grounds were very wet like after a rain. Her house was very dusty; dark, no lights, feeling very very ghostly. At that time I saw things all around - white flashes, very quick but long enough for me to catch them, wispy and haunted. I felt that there was a spirit around; a woman, or lady rather, for her energy felt quite young but not younger than 30. Endro felt it too, and we observed the woman.
It felt dangerous, really, I mean the spirit's presence. The old woman looked as if she was living in danger, but wasn't aware of it or did not want to ask for help. She turned her back on us and began cleaning her house, and when she was clearing a part of her floorboard, something was like lifted upwards - a piece of peeled dry paint, I think. It moved of its own accord, and then behind the old woman there was a swirl of air and weird white mist. Endro and I confirmed we saw a ghost, and a very hostile one too.
Then I dunno what I did, something like staring at the ghost, before both Endro and I got assailed by this vision of the ghost's pallid face with huge haunted eyes that looked a bit watery. It was freaky. Endro starting yelling as if she was scared or in pain, and my breath hitched.
Cuz the eyes were so damn real and even when I closed my own I could not get rid of the vision. It was something like the teletubbies' eyes I saw a couple of weeks ago. Freaky, and hard to get rid of. The eyes felt too damn imposing that it was a little painful and horrifying, then Endro and I ran out of the household and back to my grandparents' house (???). Well, after that we talked by the weird tree in my grandparents' yard (real one, just that it was decorated with red pink white and other christmas colours - something that appeared in a previous dream 2 times I think) and I still remember how withdrawn I felt about the old woman's household just a short distance away from ours. The eyes really haunted my dream.
I guess I'll check up dreammoods.com to find some interpretations. I'm really freaked out. The astral travelling one wasn't at all nice too - my 4th or 5th astral travel dream already, I think. I'm getting more of these spiritual dreams nowadays. Not all I like by the way.
Hmm...what else...oh yea today during math tuition I managed to do 2 questions correctly while my partners gave up. Yay! I'm so happy. Even though the astral travel dream made my head very heavy and painful, and I couldn't listen very well during the lesson, I could still think out the solution! Yippeee!!! I really really really...hope my math improves. REALLY hope.
Okay tomorrow's NCC Air day, PT and some drills...=.= Preparing for a long long day ahead. I better sleep early now before I get sick or something - well, school's unpredictable. They can make the healthiest kid ill if they want to.
Right. Gud night, sweet dreams, take care ppl and bye~!***~~~*Played with the winds at 10.39pm*~~~
I have like 5 minutes before I have to go for math tuition, and since I've got nothing much to do now and haven't been posting for 10 days or more...well, I'll update u guys.
Okay I'll keep this short. Most importantly on friday during Math lesson, Mrs Chia called me up to the whiteboard to do a math question - well, she said she'll help me with it. Turns out she went around to check on the others and I did it alone. It was about algebraic expansion, something I didn't use to be so good at, but now I really need to say...I love my China math tuition teacher. He's awesome. Really. I have to thank him a lot for this.
(A shout over the seas) THANK YOU!!!
Well yup hope he hears it. O.O
Okay okay oh no 3 minutes left...well we had home econs for aesthetics and we did Sandwiches and papaya boats and Azzy and I ate all we made. O.O Quite conveniently I think. Well ya and I had to use my towels (ONLY MY TOWELS). *Glares at Azzy*
Well then after assembly had to hand up CAP portfolio, but I didn't bring cuz I thought the deadline was on Saturday 10th Jan. So yea, a lot of probs with the English department teacher, then I had to go to school yesterday morning at 9 o'clock to pass it up personally to her. I reached at 8.30, then I waited till 9 and called her, but she wasn't there. Then I waited for another 2 hours during which I called her exta umpteen times...then she said she was in a meeting, and finally came out. AFTER 2 HOURS.
Okay I suppose that's the punishment I'm getting for not passing it up bfore the deadline.
=.= Why is school so full of weird choices? And sometimes they really suck too!
Oh well.
Did watercolour painting yesterday. Learnt a lot of things. Will put up a picture of my painting later - but teacher edited it a lot, so I shan't declare it to be fully my work.
Endro was feeling drained at the end of the lesson and she was like very scary. Well...she said I should be glad I wasn't seeing her at night. I think I am. She was really freaking me out - dangerous aura! T.T Tell you more later gtg NOW!!!
BYE!***~~~*Played with the winds at 9.48am*~~~
Saturday, January 3, 2009
3rd day of New Year. 2009. I'm feeling a little nostalgic already; well, we had our first day of school yesterday - a Gray Friday (since it wasn't white and not as bad as black) - and I don't think I really liked how things were looking in sec 2...even though we managed to stick together from 107 to 207 which is like one of the only good things for a start. Well, apparently things have changed and classrooms didn't feel as cozy as they used to in J block - we were shifted to another building, and our old one is left to sec 1s I think.
I suppose I'll miss it (not the colours though).
We have a new form teacher, I shall not comment much on her since I cannot claim to know her just yet, and Mrs Chia is still our math teacher. Honestly, I don't particularly have anything against any teacher; it's just that somehow...perhaps I'm feeling kinda guilty towards Mrs Chia for not doing well in Math last year? ><>Was.
Well, I'll try to change that aspect this year. Can't bear the prospect of living with it forever.
Anyways, yesterday school released at 1.30 pm, and Endro's dismissed at 1, so we decided to meet up at Choa Chu Kang library at around 3 to read and search up some stuff. Then we had lunch for half an hour, and made for my house at aproximately 4 pm. The visit wasn't particularly nice I think - since both of us felt things around and they weren't at all positive. Endro said my house needed a new coat of paint; I guess she's right, the walls are real freaky. You can practically see huge patches of brighter shades of white all around, and Endro remarked that the ceilings (especially the borders around them) had shadows that didn't look very inviting.
Not like I can persuade my parents into such a "project" anyway. You know what they're like.
So after that we used the com and watched about 11 videos on meditation and astral travelling, and the "life after life" part got us so damn freaked out (dang the background music) that we pulled up our collars and looked like (what Endro said) draculas. Uh...well, it was reaaaally freaky, okay? I hated the background music. The flute! The flute! Ts got this stupid trembling sound that's...uhm, *no words to describe the feeling*...
It's freaky!!!
Well, immediately after the videos we searched up a roll of funnier (lower-frequency) and light-hearted vids - u know, clear out the annoying uneasiness in our hearts!? Had a good laugh and forgot some of the stuff afterwards. Endro loaded a Japanese game vid - about this class learning English, they were not allowed to laugh or they'll get *cough* scourged, a little sadistic but - ahem - pretty funny too. I meant the video the class was supposed to watch, not the scourging parts. =.=
The lesson was supposed to be "Marco Polo", and that guy in the TV had trouble pronouncing many many things. "Venice", for one thing. And it sounded really....^^"
Then he had to count in English, and for the first 19 numbers he was pretty self-confident and looked very glad about it, but when it came to 20...uh well, he had some problems. In the end he decided it to be "ten ten". Then "ten ten one", "ten ten two".........."ten ten nine", and he hesitated for 30 again, but continued with "ten ten ten". So when it came to hundred....
*Breathes* Well.
U have to watch the vid yourself. It isn't so funny in words.
And for the class watching the video, it was torture for them I think. Some people resolved to biting their textbooks to stop themselves from laughing - it looked so retardedly stupid. Bwahahhaa. And one guy laughed like soda in a bottle I think. Got that "blurp" feeling... O.O
Aw funny how Japanese can be so hilarious when it comes to learning English...
Okay, so yea. That's basically all. One more lesson-free day on Monday, then it's gonna come at full speed MERCILESSLY. Yes, MERCILESSLY! Nohohohoho.......TwT
Wish me good luck, and I'll wish you back, my fellow friends!!! We're stickin' together...sec 1's over............................
And just a note: I'll change the blog ending footer for 2009! It's no longer "The winds struck at ........ "! Okay? Clear?
Okay.
I guess I'm a little sugar-high right now. Though I don't get it...I didn't eat anything really sugary today...O.O *scratches head*
Well guess I'll leave you for now! I feel like my head's gonna explode any moment -***~~~*Played with the winds at 3.46pm*~~~
Thursday, January 1, 2009
HAPPY NEW YEAR~! An awsome 2009 ahead - I hope. There're so many things I would love to touch up on but it depends whether I can make through them all. It's been so long after all, time flies so fast, and 2008 is over; it's something like a dream I've just woken up from and realized all that's in reality around me, something not particularly pleasant, but not really hollow either.
I loved 2008.
It was a year of awakening and awareness, even if there was emptiness; a year of newfound friendships, even if there was solitude; a year of joy and sharing, even if there was pain; 2008, a year of cherished hopes and fresh experiences and rarest laughter all rolled into a bundle of life's most generous gift - a gift that would never be taken away and would come again in 2009 with a new mainpoint and a new meaning.
That was how life played. That was how life cared. That was how life loved, even if there were times whereby it could be hard enough to throw you into the dirtiest ditch and leave you fumbling in the dark - but just like a loving father, it had left on a light in the darkest of areas. A light. A hope.
There was always the element of hope.
And just as it is, the most precious of things are always found in the most unexpected areas. Courage, inspiration, friendship, wisdom...so many things, so many ways, so many branches from the same stem. A common goal which all seeked, but seekers with arrogance found none; seekers with the least they could think of themselves found all they deserved.
It was the ability to remain empty at your level of attainment - to remain empty and be refilled, and never to reach the brim till one point in life when all your destined goals are reached, and it would be time to dole the rations of your water to souls who needed them. By the time you would lie on the bier wrapped in cerecloth of the purest white, or of a colour of deepest black, you would be empty - but not spiritually empty. Your heart is full, your mind is weathered, and your spirit is high in the realm of forever. There would be nothing to take along as you move on.
We would go back pure and untainted, with only the essence of our spirits, just as we had come into this world empty-handed and unknowing. But we would've known; we would've known all we could by then.
It was a cycle of life. A set of subconscious paths encrypted into every one of our minds, even if every individual had his or her own way to walk it. Some could fly, some glide, some run; and some walk, some limp, some crawl along. We were all born different; never with the same stamina, the same length of legs, the same strength in our muscles. We have varied start-offs. And we have to accept it, for even if we needed equipments on our way, if we needed walking sticks or defined paths or guides, someone right beside to hold you, remember...
Life is a game of hide-and-seek, it always was, in both a kind and cruel way. It could hide what you desire and never grant you its revelations; or it could hide a hope in the most uncertain of nights and leave you hints to find it.
These hopes are everywhere, they're all around you.
Friends, society, a whole world of strangers in name but brothers at heart - we are one, even if years of war may rip us apart and intervals of momentary peace bring us back again, even if sorrows abound in the lengths of shadows light has reached not, even if there may be many a misunderstanding in our flawed communications...we're still there for each other. There is still human warmth in the darkest of times. There is still love.
Live well, my friends, and bathe in the light of your dignity and joy and challenge your agonies as they challenge you - for there's always somebody out beyond listening, even if you may be too blinded with pain to know. That person could be just outside your wall, beyond your door, a few kilometres from you, over the seas, or even halfway round the world; but that person is there, and rest well in that belief. Rest well in knowing that you can still do it - and it is in you.
Personally I have troubles of my own, but 2008 was eventful and I have found many who existed around me and are dear to me - who helped me in times of need, even if they themselves didn't know it. As for naming those friends, I've decided to maintain this element of pleasant mystery, and let such a veiled gratitude remain misted in parts where knowledge may only spoil the whole thing. But such is a message I have for my friends - undoubtedly a long one too, I apologize for that. Hear me well! XD
Okay, I really gtg sleep now. Best wishes for 2009 once again! Sleep well, and wake up to a bright day!
Take care~***~~~*The Winds struck at 1.12am*~~~
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