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Thursday, July 24, 2008
Hey you guys know something? I found this piece of Japanese work I've written on my old dead blog...It's supposed to be inspirational, it's sad and it's lonely. I've used to wanna write it for somebody else, whoever is in depression and reads this, but now it seems to echo my own feelings so well that I wonder...if that "somebody" I had thought of when I was writing those words...was in fact myself.
Okay...I'll just post it up. Too bad if you can't read Japanese.
But basically it tells of this girl living alone in a vast world of snow, where the winds were full of snow, where there wasn't any moon, flowers, oceans or light...anything but snow. She cried, alone, under a tree, yet she tries to reassure herself that she didn't cry. She did not want to cry.
Yet, questions come. She wonders what kind of world she is living in, and what is the truth behind all things. Sitting down, she writes the words "Ame", or in English "rain", in the snow. She starts questioning why there isn't any rain in her world. She doesn't know what it is, and begins to realize how small, cold and dark her world is. And in a strange bout of determination, she embarks upon a journey to search for a flame, a small yellow flame that would melt the snow in this world and create a rain she had yearned for so long. She searched and searched...seven days had passed, but nothing happened.
There wasn't the flame.
Yet she will continue to search, forever, until she can find that spark of yellow amidst the never-ending blankets of pure white. She searched yesterday, and searched today, and will search tomorrow. When it will end was still a question; a question of the world, a question of the truth. She won't ever give up till she's found...that small yellow flame.
"When will I find it?"
Jyaa, ima hajimemasu. あれは寒くて暗い冬です。あの静かな風や雪の声。。。大きい声で泣きました。。。この時、白い世界に女の子は一人で木の下に泣きました。そう、風と雪の歌は聞きませんでした。かのじょの命は悲しいですから、一生の歌は全然聴きません。 ------------------------------------------------------「私は泣きませんでした。。。泣きません。。。」 ------------------------------------------------------女の子と言って、雪に“雨”を書きました。 ------------------------------------------------------「雨は何ですか。ここになぜ。。。なぜ雨がありませんか。この世界はどんなところですか。」------------------------------------------------------そう、女の子の世界はいつも雪の世界です。寒くて狭くて小さい世界です。それから、風につっと雪がありました。雨はありません。月や花や明りもありません。つっと雪です。だから、火焔を捜しました。一日。。。二日。。。三日。。。四日。。。五日。。。六日。。。------------------------------------------------------ 七日です。でも、この雪の世界に火焔がありますか。雪。。。白い雪。。。火焔はどこにありますか。黄色い火焔。。。黄色い火焔。。。どこか。 ------------------------------------------------------昨日は捜しました。今も捜します。明日も捜します。でも。。。いつまで、それは質問です。この世界の質問、真実の質問。。。 ------------------------------------------------------いつその火焔を捜しますか。。。------------------------------------------------------
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Searching for a Flame in a World of Snow
It Does Sound Impossible
But I Will Sustain
Through All the Winter Winds
And Search for It.
A Flame Which Will Melt the Snow
And Create a Rain I've Hoped for So Long.
＊＊＊***~~~*The Winds are too lazy to strike a second time today*~~~
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