Wandering with the Wind...

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Oh god oh god I'm so gonna die...I still have one piece of CHINESE essay to complete...I just finished the letter, though it was crap cuz halfway through it looked more like a compo instead of a personal letter, and it was 5 pages long, and my handwriting was messy, and it's 10.30 now so I can't think of what the hell to write...gawd Tang Lao Shi is so gonna kill me. WHAT SHOULD I WRITE FOR THE OTHER ESSAY???

Argh!!!

I wonder why I'm even blogging now. =.=

Wwwwwoh well it's good to, u know, let out your feelings when u need to. I've been a bit pent-up about some stuff lately. Haven't blogged for another week. Guess I'll update u guys again. o_o

On Fri I missed Jap lesson for CCA Trials, went for Band, but they gave all priority to sec 1s so even though I sang very well (not being ego, the person said so), only one in our group got in and it was a sec 1. Well...=.= Oh well. Then for CO trials my number was 48 and they were very slow so by 6 pm they had only gotten to number 20, and I had to go home and come for the second trial. But just hope I get in, I'd do anything to be accepted into performing arts so I can get out of NCC. (No offence)

Okay. So now I'm getting on my diet again, this time stricter and hopefully I can last through it long enough. Well I do realize this is like a lifetime kind of thing; cuz the calorie maintenence level drops and drops when u eat less and less and you can never expect to come out of the cycle without being adversely affected (so much for geog), unless you find some way to increase your metabolism rate with a pang.

Kay, so now I'm taking note of my daily calorie intake. =.= Damn annoying, but oh well. And I start to exercise 1 hour if I can - at least half, though. And I adopted the NCC Air PT sets into my own set too, just to be more efficient.

Um...now I'm eating with cups. O.O

OKAY (feels stupid) now the only problem is how to get past my parents. They think I'm eating too little now. Damn. Well come on! I'm trying to CHANGE something in me and why do they have to disrupt every single decision I make...I mean, yes I know they care, but they're not the only ones who're right everytime! They're man after all. They can't expect to be all perfect.

So when I say I'm gonna have ONLY fruits for dinner, they chuck me up with rice and vegs and meat and soup etc etc etc. So I shoved my rice to dad until I'm left with one spoonful (approx.), then took as much vegs to fill one cup, one mushie, and some fruits in another cup. I can't afford to continue eating as much as they do. If I am to change myself, then I have to be determined to do so in the first place.

Damn, things are so irritating.

Kay I really got to go. Or I won't be able to finish my homework. CYA!!!!!

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~~~*Played with the winds at 10.36pm*~~~

Aurinya blogged at 10:24 PM

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