Wandering with the Wind...

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Argh as I thought, I wasn't able to blog yesterday cuz my parents were suddenly a little spiky about me getting on the com so...um, happy (belated) Valentine's Day ppl! I'm so sorry for not blogging on the day itself. You know, the significance...

Haiz. I guess, since there wasn't too much of that "significance" now, I'll just post up a picture of my sketch of that rose I bought. The sketch sucked, of course, I'm still learning, and I did it in a rush of 45 minutes, and since there wasn't a well-defined light source (in the classroom), I did the shading out of visualization and feeling so yea. Here it is though, as a Val Day gift from me to you. Thought I at least owe u guys that much.

Hmm lots of things happened over the past few days though. It was kinda my best Valentine's Day ever - okay, remove that "kinda". It was ultimately the best so far. Firstly on Friday, Val Day eve - otherwise known, for this year, as Friday the Thirteenth - after Jap lesson, the truest surprise I had in years came. Just a normal night, normal dinner, a normal $2 rose I bought in school (actually for myself - naw, just for drawing and to love that flower for a while) and gave to my mom, and the abnormal thing happened when my mom and I walked out of Lot One.

I was just getting my bike, and I could really still feel that sudden rush of...emotion that I felt when I saw it. I was practically all "oh my gawd"s.

Tiffy totally made my day. XD Well yup, as u guys may have guessed (or not), she left one of her two roses in my bike basket. It was the pink one, for friendship I guess. The feeling was wonderful - I may write a poem about it when I have time and am in the mood to do so. I guess...it's like, years since I had ever felt so touched.

You guys may think it's no big deal, but it is for me. A real, genuine surprise that makes you feel so warm is one of the best things for Valentine. Even if it's from a friend.

Really.

In school I thought I wasn't gonna receive any roses at all, and some ppl had LOADS. But it wasn't that "LOADS" that I cared so much about; well, I was just thinking that I would love to have one rose from someone I cared for. And well yup as I thought I didn't get any, and I wasn't feeling too bad about it cuz I didn't BUY any for anybody too (dang the teddybear thing cuz I bought one for my mortal and in the end they couldn't fulfill all the orders so I got REFUNDED). Hehe. But TIFF, YOU MADE MY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aw man. I felt a lil like crying - but for once it was happy and not the usual emo. XD There's still a bit of hollowness when I think back on Valentine, but it's really, really, really...my best Val Day so far.

I was talking with Dragon the other day - stuff about relationships; after all that just seems to tangle life so much. He was saying - and I agreed - that I may have problems securing love in future. Well, yea, cuz one of my (sometimes good sometimes stupid) philosophies is that love is supposed to be free, and if one person is happy with the other, let him be happy. I dunno, it's just my mindset. It helped me to deal with all that P6 thing and all - and apparently the triangle crap was just a confusion, or so I'd like to think. Unless it wasn't. Haiz...

Actually I don't like digging in this subject too much. It's one of the deepest and shallowest topics you can find in life's philosophy though, depends on what situations. Denise once said that, in her opinion, people who write love poems are shallow. And *cough* I did have a strong feeling that she meant me and my Primrose Bloom poem. Oh gawd forget it.

So on to the next thing, that was on Valentine's Day itself, which is...yesterday. I had to attend art lesson with Endro and Mao in the morn, so yup. Endro wrapped us presents. It was amazing - beautiful, and the chocolates and sweets were wonderful. Thanks EN~! I love the sweetness of friendship; it's warm like the chocolate caramel, cool like the sweet against your tongue, soft as that cotton fruit candy. And above all it's the purple wrapping that wrapped so much time in it - the time of friendship, time of love...

It was sweet. Really sweet.

Hmm so we sketched people during the lesson, not much happening in the lesson save for Mao thanking Endro profusely for the present, and the teacher (surprisingly) actually released us on time! So yup we three took the LRT together to Lot One, and since my parents were both off to the Driving Centre and learning their honkers, I allowed myself to get persuaded by Endro to eat lunch at Lot One. XD It was great.

Nothing feels better, perhaps in a teen-like-me life, than to be out alone with your friends (in this case, my ART friends - quite some difference, u know) and eating Teriyaki. ^^ Mao got himself curry chicken, and Endro and I ate the same thing. I didn't have money though, so she lent me $4.80. Gotta remember that. I hate being weighed down with debts.

Though I'm a little puzzled at why it doesn't apply to me and the library. I can just forget every single thing about my books bfore the notifications come and my parents start firing missiles at me.

And even then I can still forget.

Haiz. Haha oh, and we had quite some chat throughout the lunch. We exchanged blogs, for one thing, and I wasn't surprised when I found Endro spamming Mao's tagbox. HAHAHAHA it was so typically HER. ^^ Yup, so we were talking about Valentine's Day, and Mao told Endro that next time she should spend it with her boyfriend. O.O And then there were some pretty tense things going on...

Pardon me, guys, but I'm gonna put a scene of ur chat here.

(Edited based on my "dilapidated" memory O.O - flashes nervous smile at Ms Lim)

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ME: This Valentine's Day Lunch feels nice.

MAO: Yea, next time you should spend it with your boyfriend.

ME: *Ignores - or at least leaves it to Endro*

ENDRO: (Rises to the occasion magnificently) *coughs* Ahem...(blahblah - can't remember ^^") You feel very suspicious...

Silence.

MAO: What. Don't get it wrong, I'm not in love with you or anything -

ENDRO: *coughs* Ahem ya I know - *cough*

ME: Uh...

MAO: O_O

ENDRO: No, what I'm saying is that are u suspecting that I have a boyfriend? I don't.

MAO: Oh I see...
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Ya something like that. Hmm well, in conclusion (sry, was doing too much of Geog and History PEELs and FAs), it was a nice lunch and we all had a great time together - *ignores the above script* - and yup. Oh and Endro and I went to the library together, then she had to go at 3 - or was it 4 - and I stayed in the library till almost 6. Was reading. Found 2 wonderful books; it's so darn hard to get good books that can keep you reading without putting it down too much these days. Haiz...I do hope authors can write the type of stories that now exist in my nostalgia...

And before I forget, I think it's better if I tell you about my dreams. These few days I've been having LOADS of them; not roses or anything, nothing Valentine-y, just...totally weird and random stuff that feels so darn long and I could feel the time in them.

The first one was about fighting. This bunch of people - including me - stuck in a damn messy building that's like a labyrinth of rooms u can't walk out of, and two of our companions were fighting against this woman who was kinda pretty powerful. The rest of us were watching from the slit of a - cowardly - opened door. O.O It was kinda scary. One guy was fighting with a fan - he had long black hair, looked a bit like Neji from Naruto I think. Haiz...what's gotten into me...

It was one of the lower frequency dreams I had I think.

Well the next was in this weird magician show or something. This boy was standing on a stage that was so darn high it reached the skies, but not in the clouds, and it was evening with a sky-blue sky (feel free to O_O at the description). No clouds btw. Lights upon him, audience at the bottom. We were watching him conjure rubber duckies from that distance - the duckies looked so darn small and he kept conjuring, and there were loads of them, with floating letter "Z"s behind them. Yea, ZZZZZZ meant sleeping. Either that, or Diao.

THANKS to Ying Jiao's rubber bathtub duckie that she brought to school the other day. =.= I'm just glad that those in my dream didn't have pink floats around their necks.

So...on to the third.

We were at this theme park thingy, my parents, me, and a younger sister and an elder brother (just companions in the dream). Yea my parents went with the other bunch of adults into this old ancient Chinese building (something like a hotel), and I was in charge of the two kids. It's a lil weird huh, now that I think back on it, why wasn't my "elder brother" in charge? And instead I had to take care of HIM.

Well, not much of a problem, cuz he disappeared mid-dream anyway.

Uh so this little sister...she had short black hair, and wore a lace dress that was down to her knees. Can't remember what color. Either purple or pink or white (not purely that color though. It was a combination). Yea she kept running through this game thing. It was like obstacle race - lots of buildings we had to run through, and there were many playgrounds, toilets, in bright daylight, and I had to chase after her. She ran damn fast. One moment she's behind me, the next she's dunno where. So yup, I kept finding her at this place which was like...

There was a small brown wooden door, the ground was covered with leaves that felt white but consisted of another color (can't remember what), and there was a sakura tree with pink petals above my lil sis. She kept going there. Always. And I would always find her there, then tell her "let's go back", and lead her through this tunnel thing that was made of rock and wasn't entirely underground. It's dark in the inside. But she would always disappear afterwards.

So then she really disappeared, and I couldn't find my way back to her "place". Joined in with my parents. They were touring the hotel, and I remember once they were (ridiculously) staring at this advertisement for one of those feet-massage services and they were actually (ridiculously) considering it - well, the price was damn unreasonable after all. Bwahahahahha all the ridiculous things that can happen in a dream...

And I saw oranges. Dunno where, just like an insert of an image before my eyes. O.O Hell lot of them.

Ah and then the tourguide stopped before this shop which had a sign before it talking about birds that existed (only) in the hotel, and I was looking at this species which was grayish-white with a streak of green down its back. In the picture it wasn't very small, but then I turned around and saw one streak past (damn fast) through the clearing, and it was as small as...six ikan bilis.

Let's just take it that u got the description.

I forgot the other dreams. *Smacks head for not posting earlier*

Hmm but I do remember part of one I had today. It was sometime just before I woke up, whereby I dreamt of a soldier in pale brown uniform in a cavalry. The commander had a bushy black moustache that went down in two directions, and he was shouting an order; apparently that soldier defied cuz he turned away and galloped off on his horse, and the commander was like telling the others not to worry, cuz the soldier would lose himself there anyway or something like that.

I was watching all this from the top of a tree. The area was like a plain - full of trees though, and no mountains, just a stretch of grass-covered land and trees. Withering trees. Apparently it was something like Autumn going on to Winter. So then I heard a rustle to my left and the soldier climbed up the tree there; I told him to stay silent (OH and I was wearing white and had long black hair - dunno why) and he obeyed. I remember putting a finger at my lips to gesture. Well he caught it, and yea. We just stooped to watch.

And I woke up. Argh geez. =.=

Oh well. I guess I've really said enough. Tomo long day, I DON'T GET WHAT THE HELL THE CHEM PT'S TALKIN ABOUT AND WE'RE SUPPOSED TO TEST THE SUBSTANCES' PROPERTIES TOMORROW, and I have to bring the guitar to school cuz got practice. Mr Chua will help us tune the guitars tho; mine's kinda off-tune already. They say new guitars tend to get off-tune pretty easily, that is, for some time; then u can have it all a bliss. They'll teach us how to tune anyway. No big deal.

Aw man I'm tired. Naw more of my fingers. They've been typing for a long long time...

Long long ago...

Okay I'm nuts. Gotta go, cyas. Wish me good luck for my Chem...T.T

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~~~*Played with the Winds at 10.22pm*~~~

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