Wandering with the Wind...

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Plainly speaking, I'm feeling very down right now.

Firstly my guitar teacher-in-charge just replied that, after having spoken to the HOD of CCA, they are unable to accomodate my request to be excused from Tuesdays' Guitar sessions for one semester (for the SAP bridging course), which leaves me with almost no other options than to either transfer CCA from guitar to art club (which I really hope not, and sounds impossible as art club is not a core CCA), or to just give up my CCA points for the year and skip one semester of guitar. Both of which sucks equally.

So, apparently my guitar teacher IC wishes to meet me after school tomorrow to discuss my options. =_= I really dunno what to tell her, seriously, I can't blatantly say "if nothing else works then I will quit this CCA and join Art Club" - which would make me sound so much like a shameless traitor. Same goes for giving up the CCA points, she'd kill me for even having such an idea in my head. Not like I can afford losing anymore CCA points anyway, after having lost all those in NCCair just because I transfered OUT of it. -.-

Well there's a really slim chance that I may get around with the SAP teacher and ask her if I can be excused from Bridging Course as I will catch up on my basics with Wang Lao Shi (my art teacher) - she has an idea of my level of skill from seeing my portfolio during the interview, so I hope that may...well, may work. Sounds stupid but seriously it's the easiest way out now. It's either this or that, I have to get excused from something or quit it.

Okay so secondly...I am officially feeling like a loner now. O___O Spent the entire day alone because everybody else in the class had someone they were familiar with, even the foreign scholars, so I didn't get much of a chance. Feels as if I'm back in my primary school lol, but at least then I did have one or two good friends in class, even though they were of opposite gender and we talked through note-passing.

*Sigh* Just sent (Az) and Cher a letter each through the class trays, which is like a really pathetic way of communication compared to how it used to be. I'm missing the two of them already. Seriously a lot. I didn't know that the three of us being separated would make such a great impact, I practically think of all those old memories whenever I walk those familiar places and realize they are not there anymore. And reading Az's article in the 207 class booklet yesterday, about how she turned around for a spiteful remark only to realize that we weren't there, didn't really help. It just made things so much...so much...I dunno.

Az, Cher, I love you guys. T_T I can't think of anything else to say already, just feeling all...wrong right now. Remember how we said that, last Nov when Kayal announced that she was migrating to Australia and set three quarters of 207 crying, we wouldn't cry even if one of us left? Well I realized it's not that easy to keep that promise now.

Goodness I feel so weird. It's not like me to say these mushy things but seriously, you guys were the greatest friends I've ever had. Miss you so much.

Hopefully things will take a turn for the better, but meanwhile I shall emo a little while time allows.

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~~~*Played with the Winds at 8.21pm*~~~

Aurinya blogged at 8:20 PM

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