Wandering with the Wind...

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

No training today, that's why the early blogging...

Emo-ing once more. That's why I felt like writing out my feelings here, can't really stand this emptiness for any longer (at least for now). The whole of CLE lesson today didn't really help either; talking about pity, sympathy, empathy and all the likes of it. I should say...it's fun but...not the way I'd liked.

Honestly, they didn't fully understand empathy. It's not just about putting yourself into others' shoes; in empathy, we make use of others' feelings to understand them more, so as to come up with appropriate approaches to deal with these people. We visualize the whole scene in our minds with no preset opinions or feelings, and wipe clean ourselves of all surrounding influences. We can also look from a third person point of view to see who is right or who is wrong, and incorporate this into our daily life problems. The main thing about empathy is clearing your own thought and emotional barriers to activate a full different perspective.

And for advancers, as we get to understand more and more people, we search for distinct patterns in the behaviors and reflect on ourselves to decide how and what is the best approach to society.

This is empathy, and I shouldn't say it's the full definition of empathy yet. To know something to its fullest, it will be something that is terrifically hard to put into words. At the deepest recognition of a certain subject, meanings come in the form of inspirations and feeling. There wouldn't be the word or thought to sentence it in full; it is a form of realization, an awakening, or rather...an enlightenment. Its secrets are yet to be uncovered beyond what human language can service.

Now for today's sewing, I finished the apron and started on the pouch already. My design's supposed to be a leaf, made with green, white, light blue and beads of some other light colours. It was a little hard to hand-sew it cuz the threads kept tangling up, since I used too great a length, and the strings kept snapping. After that it's just so hard to tie a knot directly there to prevent the beads from coming all out. What the hell................

Did Oral yesterday. Chinese oral. Wasn't as bad as I'd thought, but it's still not as good as my mom would've wanted it to be. The teacher asked me about blogging...yeah right...blogging...whether it's good or bad, how should we prevent cyber bullying on blogs blah blah...she gave me all the hard questions together with Min Yi.

And Jap test was relatively good. Not that hard, but a lil tricky in certain ways maybe.

Haiz...the reason for my sudden emoing is because just now I was visulizing my inner world, and suddenly things seemed to merge. For a moment my world seemed to be really existent; I really felt its presence somewhere distant and faraway, yet so near to my life right now. It's like it's nearing with every step, and I'm regaining my own memories of having lived in that wonderful place. It's as though it really existed! It's like...I got excited, like I'm gonna go to my world pretty soon!

But after that the feeling dissolved into thin air and my heart died.

I just hope that happens in ascension. If only that does happen for now. It's weird; even now I'm feeling as though my world is here already. I don't know why. It's lke I'm preparing to go there.

I DON'T KNOW WHY.

Anyway today morning I saw another spirit in the school corridor, just beside the bus stop. He vanished fast like others, but slow enough for me to look at him clearer this time. But this spirit is a lil more translucent than others. As in like...he's kind of a little...blended into the surroundings but his outlines are clear and distinct. He's kinda aged around...a lil younger than 30 years. Wearing blue office shirt, and I didn't see what trousers he were wearing. He had black hair and didn't wear specs.

And I took a psychic clairvoyance test online the day before yesterday, and I had to look at photographs with women in them and basically respond about their family backgrounds. I wasn't particularly accurate, but for one picture I was. Pretty much. Well...I was looking at her and I had a first thought of her age as 31 years, and her job was in an office and had got something to do with books. It turned out that she IS 31 years old and she was an editor. Omg...haha.

The trick of it, I realized, is to trust your intuitions and to learn how to differentiate true intuition from self-influenced guessing.

Oh yeah bfore I go, bro had been secretly accessing his MSN on the laptop during a lecture over at his side. Haha...funny anecdotes in a lecture room. I could really feel the tension mounting at his place and he said that the prof was on look-outs. Haha XD that was so fun.

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~~~*The Winds struck at 3.38pm*~~~

Aurinya blogged at 2:24 PM

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